Breathe in, breathe out, Woah!! it just feel so nice, I really thank God for the fresh air. well, for some reason i really really need the freshest air of all..
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
11:16 PM
Monday, July 30, 2007
im proud of myself, record breaking i managed to sleep 8 hrs yesterday, woohoo!!! well, my goal is to sleep 8 hrs per day. but it seems like super hard, as im blogging at this time, so ya mission failed this time round.
i just realised that someone in yf thought that im a mix..haha.. honestly, i really dont know shall i be happy or sad. hmmm...maybe is a good think..wahahaha
11:47 PM
Friday, July 27, 2007
FINALLY, im back home, after a long long day. im so tired, wanna close my eyes right away. *yawn* went jamming at the upper thomson there, it has been quite a long while that i have jam with Amalgamate (btw tt's my band's name, cool rite), the room there not very nice, i prefer a more spacious room, yes big one. i just hook on this computer game 'the house of the dead'..haha..can improve my typing speed sia, not bad. POTS was awesome, woohoo!!! i could see that the church coming as one to pray for the church itself =) yes, surrendering my everything to him, the assurrance he gave is so encouraging yup. looking forward for the next POTS.
BOOM!! my deskstop gone, heard that there is a blackout..haha..powerful ar, only haven burn down my house..or else you guys will see me sleep on the road or i dont know where just some where..i got this feeling that my sis and bro will fight over my lappie NOooo!!! hands off my lappie. hope that day wont come, it just seems impossible =( talk about lappie, Ben finally got himself a new lappie, i think he gonna be quite active at night from today onwards.hee..
i wanted to post my friend's video is so funny man..but have to find the url..will post it soon..wahahaha. 3 more weeks to holiday, yeah!!!
11:45 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
Was in south pole today, wasnt that nice cause i didnt bring my winter clothes there. what a waste, sign. Never mind tomorrow will be well prepared. Since everyone was in south pole today, it doesnt affect my faci's mood, not cool enough to cool him down. serious mood swing sia *dangerous* scary too =S
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Guess who is hiding behind the white tingy..hee..
Boom!! what a nice shot, a warning NO sleeping in class or else you know what will happen to you..wahahaha..btw that was my faci.*snooze Zzzzz*
After reading a few of my friends' blog, was wondering why there are so many people out there who are lost, aimlessly looking for their goals. what are goals to them? where can they find it? and this question just hit me. what am i doing now? im happy with my life and i know the purpose that God has shown me. why not share it to them right now, yes now. it really took me a while to absorb all that, well yes i will try =)
8:47 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
today's sermon was good, Ben did a good job la,really =) i think it did reminds me again that im always busy doing stuff and really need to find rest in him. yes yes, that was what i was taught through my QT the pass few days..haha..good reminder, to manage my time well too..ya have audition, it when pretty smooth and all went well. yep yep, went shopping after that, honestly,i was quite hungry la, going to eat ice cream, yummy!!! im like super long never eat ice cream already, must go pamaper myself..we are ready to go, chiong ar!!! im sure everyone is looking forward to eating the ice cream, especially grace (her hotlick flavour) we were busying talking till we missed our stop, ah!!! quick get out of the train now!!! Yeah!! finally we reached the Food Fest. we went to try almost all the ice cream flavour..haha..i think the person cant stand us =X went around to see other ice cream stores so Josh can choose his choices..but ended up he didnt buy any, we just kept trying even though we not planning to buy,typical singaporean. that time call Josh to go shopping with us, he suddenly disappear, but finally this time agreed to go with us.must praise him, is rare to see him so gentleman le, help qingying carry her guitar the whole time..haha..have lots of fun there besides eating, we also make a fool of ourselves, by staring at the person who makes the doughnut, wondering what he has added in the pot of oil..i guess we stood there for about 5 mins or more, we are like monkeys so fascinating about what happen to the thing that was added, qingying was like " okok i will go ask the person" haha..unfortunately the person have no idea what izzit, so it left us no choice, is time for us to proceed to next station for more food..wahahaha..the best part was the ah moh do not understand english, woohoo or else it will be worse. so embarrassing. i think i enjoy the sausage store the most la, the auntie very good le, keep serving us with sausages although we went there a few times already, wondering whether she has STM or she pretending dont know us. haa..Grace was like listening to the promoter then one quarter of the promoter's plate of sausage gone, we wondered where it gone to..haha =X (if grace saw this she gonna kill me) oops..hee..we were like quite full after a few rounds of walking..hee..that settled my dinner for the day..cool right, eating snacks for dinner..
9:51 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
whee~ i'm back, well im so happy that im getting right with my life..yes yes, past few days were horrible..dont know what im doing also, trying ways to get some sleeps but the worse thing was that it dosent work. i thought im lack of sleep, but after catching up some sleeps, it just seems to be the same, ah!!! but after that i realised it wasnt so much of physical tireness but spiritual..the source of strength is from God not whatever man can get through this phyiscal world. no matter how hard you try, you will still feel tired and drain. i found rest and peace in Him, that refreshes me and give me strength to carry on with my life. yes, im excited about it, till i coud not sleep till 2 plus last night..im still physical tired,but im happy because the joy of the Lord is my strength. and also thanks to the people who encourage me these few days..i love you all =)
yup, as now im recharged, have more energy to disturb people..wahahaha..im quite sad about my L button, it's going crazy..it just dont listen to me anymore *cry* i know im abit lame to ask people to pray for my L button, but all things are created by him so ya, he will fix it for me..im sure.after my friend prayed for my L button then this is what he said "i think God sent me a vision for u". what's next was to send my lappie to the acer service centre. it seems like i have to do that in order to save my lappie. oh well, i better pray harder if it is the version than i will be guai to go to the service centre then. haha.. joshua really make my day, i have been laughing at that question he said for almost 15min la, if i laugh somemore i think i can roll on the floor..haha..
i just spolit my earpiece, so sad la, dropped it into my cup of tea. this is the second time and it cant survive.things are gonna spolit in my hands, especially electronics..
im so scared that friday will come, this my schedule for tml, 8.30am-4pm(school) 4.30pm-6.30pm(jamming) 7.30-10pm (cg) *faint* so pack man, i cant breathe..i will surely fall sick..God is so good that my friend told me that the jamming session is cancelled.YEAH!!! at least i can go home for a while, can rest..
10:51 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
what's the problem with my email acc, it just gone crazy..cant send to people who are using hotmail..hmm..maybe is the problem with all the hotmail users..feeling better but im going back to sleeping later, that is no good..kids do not learn that..brain still dead..sign..well we have a mini concert in class calvell sang, woohoo!! next time we have so singing competition he can be up there..haha..woke up not long ago, the most important thing is that i havent done my homework, if i sleep till next day that's it i will totally forget about it..my STM getting worse..sign..oh shucks, my brain is still not working very well, hardly see me talking frequency not gum with people, break record already..yes yes, that's y the warning sign of my msn nick not taken down yet..need lots of sleep
5 more weeks to my holidays..days just past so slowly =(
energy level 5%
11:59 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
im super tired, dragged myself out of bed and took a bus to school. the day just begin like a routine..*yawn* that will most probably last me for five day..came to school no in a very good mood 99% due to not enough sleep. no mood to go high and crazy, the most importantly i didnt have any mood to talk to people online although im really bored. this is really not a good sign, cause the volcano within me can explode anytime. BOOM!BOOM! unfortunately, it expoloded today, im like so piss off and it is a very lame reason. for that moment, i really need to pour everything out to someone. so that to prevent other people get hurt..haha..well after that im fine already.dont feel like talking about it anymore. mind was like 50% active and i start my week with Java, well after reading the problem statement, im like blank have no idea what im gonna do to solve it..faci gonna come and check on what we have done, im dead. yes the problem was hard, that's why faci was kind of nice to ask each group to have one application done will do. what an opportunity for me to not do my work and push everything to my friend to do since his like the smartest among the group. well really feel bad, so i just contribute by looking at how he do his codings. honestly speaking, Java doesnt work like these, is more on doing it myself so i could learn. my faci come over,he was so sarcastic, cause my whole group of five people, one person doing the work and the rest use eye power. He was like" woah!! your so powerful use eye power than he can do better right, use more use more" feel like boxing him man, plus he still ask us whether he is sarcastic anot *faint* i really cant wait for class to end, so that i can go home and get some rest, but there is like revision lesson after school,haiz, must cheer myself to carrying on, ahhh!!! my eyes were half closed and the workin condition of my brain was 30%. i regret going, is like i can go read up myslef la, should have go home instead.wasted 45 min there. stoning all the time..*yawn*
it was kind of a surprise for me, i saw this letter which my name on it..hmmm..was wondering who is the person..haha..opened it, guess what is the COSI kids, Jack and Vanarith they wrote to me, im super happy, it really makes me feel better after a whole day of moodiness. and they also gave me a keychain..hee..so nice of them. i really wanna tell my cambodia team. cant wait to tell them the news..woohoo!!! yes yes, will reply to them soon..haha..Vanarith's handwriting is very nice le..haa a guy somemore..haha..i miss them too =)
energy level dropping to 18%..
8:24 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
woohoo!!! we celebrated matt's birthday today..haha..and it's so funny la, his gf is behind all these but he didnt suspect it..hmmm.. well, i guess it's really surprise for him la..have a long meeting till 5 plus *yawn*, yes yes we should try to have a shorter meeting next time..haha
11:33 PM
Saturday, July 14, 2007
went to watch harry potter today, i really enjoy myself just have this off day feeling. yup, i like this event tingy, not so much on watching movie but the gathering part..is pretty cool, dont you think so..haha..it will be good to have more of this kind of tingy..haa..i would say that the movie was ok..
Im happy with my shopping too, yup bought my cardigan, the best thing is not about shopping or watching movie but is to really catch up wif my friend..woohoo, finally we met up..amazing la.well, nowadays didnt really eat much, tt's good too, can help in my diet plan..wahahaha..tml gonna be a long long day =(
11:57 PM
it was the most tiring day i have throughout the whole week, not because im bored but is really physically tired. I have school til around 6pm then went for cg after till now..*yawn* my eyes are half close already, brain is shutting down..
I really wonder what kind of topic was today, did go into the wrong class, or do i have STM that serious that i totally forgotten what module for today. im quite disappointed on my faci, cant believe that she started a conversation by gossiping. the worse thing is that the person she gossip about is our new faci. i have no idea why do my faci have to do that, i really feel sad for my new database faci, she only have two lesson with us, she's new to the RP system how much can you except from her. my mood for today already drop to the bottom..still dare to encourage people to write petition letter to the module chair to complain about her. tsk..this kind of faci, really deceive to be kick out of school.
12:37 AM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
well, i have to rework my proposal because the topic i wanna do is too broad. I really hate to redo things, so i drag from last friday till yesterday night. i have no idea what to do with my proposal, what to put in, which topic should i narrow down. stress makes me wanna run away to far away land..but the only thing i know is that i have to finish it yesterday night. it is so not me that i will be so guai to settle down and chiong the whole night. God really knows his children well enough, i cant run away or hide somewhere. i really cant move on, i have no idea, nothing for me to squeeze out of my brain. yes i prayed,it is amazing how God really answered my prayer. the information i searching is just all i need. woah! praise the Lord..YEah!! finally i chiong finish my PP till 2am. and my proposal has approved this morning, super efficient. i love it..haha..e weird thing is that since i catch so little sleep, i will definitely be sleepy in school but NO im super awake..haha
i tot today's module will be quite fun, is about video, but in the end just the starting so we gonna plan first, so sad..i tot we are shooting MTV..oh well, finish my work super early, so i have nothing to do, ah!!!! im like half dead already. not much people online for me to disturb too..help!!! so i decided to do some online shopping, i cant believe myself, i managed to look through the whole long list of all the webbie i have plus my friends' one too (in details)..after that also finish looking through all the blogs, see im that bored, cant believe that i can do this during my break..*faint*
well yes im complaining, but really really thank God for everything =)
11:13 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
after a day, my swollen eye has decided to subside..wahahaha..the best thing is that i can open my eye properly..haa..im sad, i cant crash the poly i wanted to, tsk so irritating le..tsk..
10:16 PM
AH!!!!! woke up with a shock, one of my eyes is swollen, cant open my eye properly, is like stuck half way,tsk so uncomfortable..what happen to me?? hmmm..did i have a fight while im sleeping? or maybe someone box me when im sleeping? or is the side effect that is cause by the durians i ate last night? the worse thing is that i gonna teach my student later. how how? she will definitely spot e difference..i hated man..for a moment i wanted to call off the lesson and stay at home, so i wont embarrass myself. but come to think of it, NOooo, i cant do that, must be responsible, so i go ahead and ya weird then weird la..heck care already. I have to go do some shopping, oh dear, time to dig out my shades and use it..BUT it looks like it gonna rain soon, shucks now how i cant wear my shades in the rain, people will think im some crazy woman..what a day, maybe it is fated that i have to stay at home on wed =(
11:47 AM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
oh nooooo...is that faci again..i really tried my best to be enthu for the class today..but it doesnt work, after sometime i became very bored.feel like sleeping..not only me lo, im sure the whole class do free bored too..must give new faci chance because she is learning too..haha..she did improve abit today *claps* , that's pretty good, hopefully she can improve in her explanation more..haa
im planning to crash all the polys..haha..dont know why this idea just came into my mind..hmmm..but it sounds good. so im gonna crash it soon..wahahaha..yeah!!! no school tomorrow..SLEEPS...
10:55 PM
Monday, July 9, 2007
cant believe im being chase off my computer at this hour..so sad la..Luckily, there is someone entertaining me man..haha..*hint* no rock concert this time, i want it next time hor..haha..
counting down for holidays..maybe in ard 1 month time..im tired i wan HOLIDAYS...
11:44 PM
Sunday, July 8, 2007
AH!!! i have to wake up at 5.30am, that's is very early la i dont even wake up that early during my school days..*yawn* i snooze till almost 6am then drag myself out of bed..yes yes, ben was able to wake up..amazing ar. so i dont need to run for bus or my train..haha..thkx ben =) i think i pretty like the sound today, yup yup..cindy,grace n me went shopping after lunch..Joshua pangseh us..haha..nonbody gonna help us carry our stuff..oh well joshua that day will come man..walk around the town area..they both have a fullfilling shopping trip, bought quite a number of stuff, i like the green shirt la, but quite ex le, must control la keep spending these few days, got scolded le..sob sob..cindy was saying let's get something to drink, then we go look for cushion chat..haha..like auntie hor =X once we are on our comfortable seats, we are like stick there, so we continue to chit chat until quite late..wahahaha..
9:56 PM
Friday, July 6, 2007
board the bus and the movement i found my seat, i was thinking of my lovely bed..how nice to continue sleeping on it..Zzzzz..once i look at the problem statement for today, half my energy gone..no motivation to carrying on with today's work..it seems so hard..den most of my classmates decided to pon class, woah!!! so exciting rite!!! hmmm...but i totally dont really like the idea of that..if i really want to pon i would not have come to school, make me wake up so early then go home..tsk no logic la..well, after a very bery long mass discussion from 10 over people ready to pon end up only 3 pon. haha. spend most of the time thinking on whether to pon anot should have spend on memorizing the facts.
the 3rd meeting really scary la, first time present without using lappie only by our own understanding..shucks, STAGE FIGHT!!! STM!!! i cant memorise in such a short while la, like 5-10mins, can memorise what? die la like that..but the amazing thing is that i manage to memorise what i suppose to memorise and do it well, i guess i did a pretty good job..yes i was fighten when presenting it was freezing cold and also shaking cause im scare..dont laugh!! yes yes today we ended class at 3.30pm..im so happy..haha...cant wait to spend more time on my bed..haha..
Clarice is super tired la, i dont dare to disturb her man.. everyday OT *faint*. i see her so tired i dunnoe wad to do. the only thing i can is let her frastrate in my msn..haha..oh well, really helps k..u never know until you have try it..wahahaha..
11:24 PM
Thursday, July 5, 2007
i have to rework my PP, tsk..i have no idea where to zoom it in, cancer, aging population bababa..where ? what? how? i dunnoe..how i hope that i can start now but dunnoe where to start from, so irritating man..argh!!! the worse thing is that i totally forget when is the rework submission deadline. if i miss it, oh well, have to wait till next year.
11:30 PM
After eating all the fatten food these few days, i felt very gulity =( FAT FAT FAT...ah!!!! i need to go on diet and exercise more more more...burn all my fats away. really miss the life in cambodia..i think i eat quite little there and exercise alot..is very scary to look at the numbers on the weighing machine, it keeps jumping higher and higher..it is best not to go weigh in that case. but no matter what i still can tell that i grew fat since the time i step into poly..why cant they have PE lesson, i really miss that la. how helpful for me to maintain my weight. and what happen now is it gone worse..no help,die. you just contiune eating, life is good and that all..emo again..
3:52 PM
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
It is a peaceful day, hardly you will not see me online, but today i just dont have any mood to go online chat wif ppl or even touch my lappie, maybe im too sick to do tt..ate my medicine and nap a while in the afternoon, the feeling is so good that i dont wanna wake up..the medicine makes me drowsy..i was not sure what i was doing today man, is like im in my dream land though..haha..need rest and more rest..
this song just came into my mind, 'How Excellent Is Your Name '. I sang it through a couple of times, the chrous keep repeating in my head.
When i think about the heavens
The moons and all the stars
I wonder what You ever saw in me
But you took me and you loved me
And given me a crown
And now i'll praise Your name eternally
it makes me feel better and reminds me again that He still loves me no matter who am i, what i have, im still the apple of his eyes..im poor but He is rich.rich in everything, especially His love.how wonderful and comforting. it is not what we have that he choose to love us but he loves us because we are his children.
11:37 PM
*sneeze* gonna fall sick soon, running nose =( can feel the sore throat coming..i just ate durians the day before it makes it worse man..oh well eat first then think of consquences, cant ta han such nice fruit..haha
12:59 AM
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Nigel really make my day man, one sms enough already, i can feel it(the power is there)haha..i cant imgine if i sms him the whole day..sure roll on the floor and cannot get up la..haha..now i know how his teachers feel..haha..
8:26 PM
woke up with this concept in mind, why do people chasing after a cert, what so big about this paper. make me wonder..haiz..make me even more sad to dwell on this tingy..
i was looking forward for today's module because there will be a new faci. horror of horrors, she speak so softly = mumble, i cant even hear her clearly.tsk..e worse thing is that she cant even answer all our questions. Make us wait till hair turn white, i bet she also haven get back to us. i think i also can be a faci, since she just read out the questions and the answers for the quiz..haha.i think i will probably do a better job..haha
10:17 AM
Monday, July 2, 2007
i was in quite a good mood today, although im quite tired, really feel like sleeping at home and pon school..haha..but oh well i decided to go school rather then sleeping on my lovely bed..after i received this call, my mood become super low.depressed.emo already..argh!! she is like scolding me ok, for like out of no where. the worse thing is that i have to pretend to entertain her, like the way i entertain my customer..CUSTOMERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.oh well, really very angry, feel like putting down the phone straight away.what a nicer way to put it, ' i was just giving you feedback'. makes me dont feel like doing anything else. ya la, at least there are more people online today, can really chat with them so not that heat up after all, instead have a great time of laughter..haha..but im still sad..sob sob..i wanna hide myself under my pillow
tml will be a better day Yeah!!!..happy youth day =)
11:20 PM
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Kena bully by my e cambodia mission team ppl la,tsk...these ppl ar..*shake head* well shall not say too much abt tt..haha..im quite excited about the up coming audition, Joshua really have very good interns le, i think they can be the best supporting team man. they are planning to buy him 3 alarm clocks if he manage to pass through the audition, so sweet rite, nice gift for encouragement sia..haha..and also hint hint..i cant wait man..wahahaha
11:48 PM