i so happy to go shopping with my cousin..haha..have lots of fun although we didnt buy anything. it's really nice to meet up someone that you will most probably will see once a year, like during chinese new year. really really wish that i can see the other two of cousins coming along next time. well, that's the problem when people get attached. tsk tsk tsk, it's seems like they have to stick with their boyfriend or girlfriend 24/7 (scared they run away) haha..
everytime when im free, i will always take opportunity to rest no matter what. my rest, my alone time will always comes first. sometimes i over doing it till, it becomes my favourite excuse. i always wonder why do people have time to go out, when they are like so busy, honestly they can be even busier then i do. well, it is a big sacrifice of time, im really struggling with these issue for a long long time, even till now,sign. honestly speaking, i dont have a problem in organising outings all that, im good at it though, i really can say that. but what is so good about it that i keep this gift/talent inside the box? not using it at all. making this decision to go out today is so much work. why?? people just think that ok what is just going out, isnt that hard anyway? well, for me i do think twice before agreeing or step the first step of asking my cousin out. i keep asking myself whether rest is more important or others? why do i want to sacrifice my "off day" to others. im really selfish i guess, i hate to sacrifice my time. i guess God is really teaching me something. How can you love people when you dont want to sacrifice? how do you reach out to people when you, yourself doesnt want to give what you have to others?
yes, now i should learn to SUQUEEZE out some of my time for all my dear friends. it has been ages that i see them. miss them too, but what is the consquences? yes yes, TIME SACRIFICE.
hunks and babes be patient, im learning to share my precious time with your..haha..